my big toe is slowly growing back. when people say you look tired they really mean you look like crap. i still can't find my coach keychain wallet i had a bunch of gift cards in there. i feel so detached from the world as if my connections are slowly getting severed. im ready to go back to school. life outside of school kind of sucks. it has its perks but you're in the working world by yourself. the social life is different. i don't think there's much of a social life. i've discovered leona lewis. she sounds very 90's ish. i like her. mellow. but her songs are sad. i want to go see a movie but i have no idea what movies are out. actually im just waiting for sex and the city to come out.

i've been ignoring my dad's phone calls. i haven't called him back. the last time i talked to him, he was preaching how bad it was that i missed that one day of mass on sunday. i didn't even listen to his entire lecture. i just handed the phone back to my mom. the world of hypocracy. i hate it when people preach about the bible and god to you. i hate listening to those that preach the word so highly. often times i see that they are the ones that are hypocrites of their own words. i believe in a higher power. i believe in god. i just don't believe in the people who preach it. they are merely insignificant eyes taking a peek into your lives, and based on the minuscule amount that they are exposed to they formulate their own suspicions about you. people need to worry about themselves first. don't be a nosey ass looking in and tell people what they should be doing and how they should be living their lives to be sin free. disgusting. disgrace. distasteful. disappointing.

i blame my superficial insecurity disorder on her.
i've been really lazy about taking my fiber multivitamin and calcium pills.
music is my life. music is my escape. i take my mini ipod everywhere.